The False Dawn A false dawn is a real phenomenon. It looks like sunrise. The sky lightens. Birds sometimes even start to sing. But it’s not morning. It’s just sunlight […]
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How I Stopped Being “Gay”
(Without Stopping Loving Men) Let’s get the obvious out of the way first: I didn’t stop being gay. My orientation didn’t change, my desire didn’t shift, and I didn’t wake […]
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The Architecture of Psychic Power
Part II — When the Signal Went Silent or Part I Here Field Report : The Mechanics of the Unplugged Mind ⸻ “The silence wasn’t the end of communication. It […]
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The Shamanic State — Part Three: Tracking the Signal
For part One For part Two What Most People Call “Crazy” Is Just My Normal People call it supernatural. Unprovable. Crazy. But that’s just Tuesday for me. After thirty years […]
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THE SHAMANIC STATE — Part Two
For part One For part Three I didn’t grow up surrounded by mystics. I grew up in a small mountain town where people lived miles apart. The few friends I […]
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THE SHAMANIC STATE – Part 1
(for part two go HERE) When the glitter peeled off the New Age, I found a drum. Not a guru, not a mantra—just a steady, unrelenting heartbeat that carried me […]
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The Right to Exist
Life isn’t blissful.It’s brutal, beautiful, electric. Every story needs its cast —the wounded, the wounding,the ones who try to hold it all together. Pain isn’t punishment.It’s evidence that you’re alive […]
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When Meditation Opens the Wrong Door
I read a post the other day from someone who had been meditating two, sometimes four hours a day. Long sits. Deep stillness. No distractions. And then things started happening. […]