When my life was falling apart, I was doing two deep meditations a day, trying to interrupt the experience I was having and gain some nugget of insight that would […]
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Why You Feel Flat Right Now
People keep saying the same thing to me. “I feel flat.” “Disconnected.” “Like something shut off.” “I’m not depressed exactly. Just blank.” And almost everyone assumes something is wrong with […]
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Awakening Didn’t Fail You — The Story Did
Most people assume that whatever they think or feel must belong to them. That their judgments are personal. Their exhaustion is personal. Their sense of failure, their lack of motivation, […]
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A Quiet Step Down (and a Step Sideways)
I want to take a moment to say goodbye—and thank you. Over the last little while, I’ve started noticing something interesting. Ideas I’d been writing about here—patterns, systems, pressure points […]
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Are We There Yet?
People fail to trust their psychic abilities not because they aren’t gifted enough. They fail because they try to use those abilities inside a system that trained them to misread […]
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AFTER THE FIRE: A NEW YEAR’S FIELD REPORT
I’m not enlightened. I’m just someone who’s walked through enough ruins to recognize a pattern when I see one. And this past year felt familiar in a way that was […]
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The Return
Why do some people heal—and others don’t? That question has followed me my entire life. Healing isn’t just about getting better. Real healing rearranges your gravity. It pulls you out […]
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Blueprints From the Beyond
(Why the World Never Builds What It Receives) Before we talk about downloads, inspiration, or dimensional architecture, let’s begin with something quiet and startling: You have a purpose. And it’s […]
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THE FALSE DAWN
The False Dawn A false dawn is a real phenomenon. It looks like sunrise. The sky lightens. Birds sometimes even start to sing. But it’s not morning. It’s just sunlight […]
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How I Stopped Being “Gay”
(Without Stopping Loving Men) Let’s get the obvious out of the way first: I didn’t stop being gay. My orientation didn’t change, my desire didn’t shift, and I didn’t wake […]