(An All Hallows’ Eve Reflection) I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve died. Not the body kind—the story kind. Collapse, betrayal, sickness, awakening—every one of them a funeral for […]
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THE SHAMANIC STATE — Part Two
For part One For part Three I didn’t grow up surrounded by mystics. I grew up in a small mountain town where people lived miles apart. The few friends I […]
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THE SHAMANIC STATE – Part 1
(for part two go HERE) When the glitter peeled off the New Age, I found a drum. Not a guru, not a mantra—just a steady, unrelenting heartbeat that carried me […]
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The Body Knows: Gratitude as the Shortcut to Healing
How an ancient Hawaiian ritual and a modern nervous system met in the same crack of light ⸻ Most people have never heard of Ho‘oponopono, the traditional Hawaiian ceremony for […]
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The Self-Help Trap and the Between
I used to treat healing like a job. Not metaphorically. Literally. A full-time, unpaid position with no weekends, no benefits, and no retirement plan—just the dangling promise that if I […]
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The Joy of Living From the Crack
(Reality’s Dress Code: Wearing the Role Without Becoming It) Living from the Crack isn’t a peaceful spa retreat. It’s demolition followed by exhilaration. At first, it feels like the floor […]
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The Panther and the Pattern
(Tracking the Stories That Hunt Us) When an emotion hits that feels too big for the moment—anxiety without cause, regret out of nowhere, fear of dying—that’s intuition pointing to an ancestral belief […]
Initiation
The Right to Exist
Life isn’t blissful.It’s brutal, beautiful, electric. Every story needs its cast —the wounded, the wounding,the ones who try to hold it all together. Pain isn’t punishment.It’s evidence that you’re alive […]
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Living in the Between
Living in the Between Most people hear “living in the Between” and imagine balance. Centered. Grounded. Calm. A spiritual sweet spot between chaos and peace. That’s not what this is. […]
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What I Mean by “Stories”
We don’t actually live inside reality. We live inside stories about reality. They tell us who we are, what we’re worth, what matters, what we should fear, what we should […]